OMG! Just when I seemed to be settling into a great rhythm of life things have changed once again for me. Once I may have thought that saying " yes" to God's call to become a sister would settle all the questions of life once and for all-- Whom shall I love? Where can I be me? What will I do to make a difference for justice? What does God want of me? I am learning, however, that there continue to be new calls within the basic call to be a follower of Jesus. As a Dominican woman I have had many experiences through which I have developed skills for ministry and community life. I love the Church. God not only gifts the Church with the message and grace of Jesus, but also challenges it through our human frailties. I have had the opportunity to serve a number of parishes and live with sisters in many places. I appreciate the gifts of the people God has put into my life. But I have also learned l to carefully hold the tensions that arise in any place where two or three gather.
Today I am holding the tension of searching for a new ministry while also building the place where I live with another sister into a community where others will find sustenance for their ministry. I am also holding the tension of being a woman of the gospel within the church with the challenges coming from the Bishops of the church to sisters.
In all of this I am trusting that God who has led me to the wonderful adventure of being a sister continues to lead me. God always shows me where to go, with whom to go, and what to do when I get there.
Are you asking some of the same questions? As sisters we don't have all the answers right away, but we companion one another as we seek and find the way to follow Jesus each day.
Joan Duerst, OP