Facing My Worst Fears

Continuously saying yes to God and my call to be a religious sister with the Sinsinawa Dominicans at this time in the twenty- first century, is not something that comes easily to me.  It means blindly saying yes to a future that is unknown and trusting in a God who I cannot see, but who I have experienced constantly. This continuous yes always means a lot of letting go and dying to self.  However, through my continuous yes I have been blessed tremendously in various ways in my life and I have seen myself continue to grow into someone who I think I was meant to become, the real Lystra. 

Having to face surgery earlier this month was also blindly trusting in something or someone who I had no control over.  The mere thought of general anesthetic and the cutting of my body totally terrified me.  I felt betrayed by my body, which has been so good to me over the years.  Preparing for surgery was doing a lot of mental and emotional work.  It meant letting go of the fear of dying and of something going totally wrong and trusting in God, praying a lot and having many others pray for and with me.  In the end it all turned out well and I am now trying to be patient and allow my body to totally heal.

What are your worst fears?  Do you trust in God and in yourself enough to let go and face them?

Lystra Long, OP

New Grant, Trinidad